Last year when I was diagnosed with Thyroid cancer I was told this “If you are going to have cancer, this is the best kind to have.” There are many problems with this statement for me. However, I have learned one thing that cancer is cancer, no matter what type you have!
Back in June, I took part in my first 5K. I was honored by my friends for my fight with thyroid cancer. However, I was a little taken back about it because the 5K was for breast cancer not thyroid or even cancer in general. It felt kind of weird to have it in honor of me. I was still grateful for their love for a friend they just met last year. This is one reason I had trouble saying I will participate. I know breast cancer is growing rapidly. I actually have family and friends that have had issues with breast cancer or scares. The problem I have with this whole cancer thing is that my type of cancer is growing rapidly and killing people too. It’s just not in the news, yet.
I had to put in my head that cancer is cancer no matter what kind you have!
Quite honestly, I was jealous. I was jealous that my cancer was not a big deal in the public eye, when it’s such a big deal to me and my family. I want the world to know that my cancer is deadly too. That my cancer is absolutely important and my cancer fight is just as scary as any other cancer. As my post last week shows, my journey is still continuing.
The statement that my cancer is the one to have if I’m going to have cancer, means nothing to me. It only angers me. I will be fighting this for the rest of my life. My family has been affected. My children will now have to write on their medical forms that their Mom has cancer and they will most likely be tested occasionally as well. They now have the same scare for the rest of their lives. This whole statement made me feel like I should not be sharing how I feel about it because they made it sound like it was not a big deal. I struggled for at least 9 months now with allowing myself to feel all the emotions of cancer. All because of a statement all doctors use when it comes to thyroid cancer.
Any cancer is scary. Any cancer can kill you. All cancers give the person and their families the same emotions. And, we all continue to fight every single day.
I have now learned cancer is cancer no matter what type you have!! It has taken me a long time to accept this very thing and to realize we are all in this together! I am NOT alone.
Just being bona fide,