Looking For The Light At The End Of The Tunnel

WARNING! I may be a little bit woe is me but my point is to share the real stuff, how I feel and hopefully help others by me being bona fide about my life in this moment.

When life becomes difficult, how do you cope? 

How do you move forward again?

I’m asking these questions a lot lately.

This past year has been very overwhelming physically, mentally, and spiritually. First, as most of you know I was diagnosed with Thyroid cancer last year, had my thyroid removed, and had treatment done all within 6 months time. Then in July at a routine ob/gyn appointment I complained of a lot of pain at that time of month. They checked me with an ultrasound and found a mass in my uterus. It had to be removed because of my cancer diagnosis. They wanted it out quick. I had my hysterectomy about 5 weeks ago. The mass was NOT cancer! Thank you God!!

We also are going on about 4 years now of my husband being laid off once or twice a year which is causing some financial troubles to add to the problems we are having. It’s no fault of his, he is the hardest worker I know! We are both getting weary of it at this point especially on top of everything else. I’m also having some personal issues with attending church, I’m working on it with God’s help but it’s a work in progress. My faith has not changed but my views of church have a bit but I know God will help me through.

I’m healing slowly mentally, physically and spiritually. However, in one month’s time I’ve had my second surgery, kids starting back to school, I starting back to college and my husband’s Father passed away. It’s been overwhelming to say the very least. I had to get myself on an anti-depressant because I realized I needed it. I couldn’t get back up on my own.

Now I’m done woe is me.

I believe getting on this medicine has made for a step forward and a way to cope with all that has happened. I usually can handle things positively and pick myself back up but I think it was too much. Way too much too fast.

Like any human being (believer or not) we ask the questions “why” and “how” when we have life changing events happen. I still am asking both because quite honestly I can’t see the light at the end of the tunnel right now. I need some fun and joyful times with my husband, kids, family and friends. I need to write more. I need to be helping with the finances. I need to see the forward motion. I need to no longer cope but move on.

How do you cope when life gets so down? What about ways to move on and see that light at the end of the tunnel?

Blessings to you,

Chele

  • http://creatingmotherhood.com Dresden

    I had to stop asking “why” a long time ago. There was oddly great comfort in accepting that it was not for me to know why. I am so glad that you are writing through this time – writing is such a powerful therapy. 
    I also know that I would not have survived the last 2 years of my life without the help of medication. I am SO thankful to have had great doctors work with me in finding the right solution for me. 
    Thinking of you and proud to know you- you are so strong!

    • http://www.thebonafidelife.net Chele

      I usually am good about stopping myself with the why thing but it just seems to be one after another and honestly it just needs to stop! I want off this ride! lol. Thanks so much for your support and friendship Dresden! xoxo

  • Melissa

    I have to cling to the promise in the Bible that our momentary circumstances are preparing us for eternal glory.  {and I take an anti-depressant :}

  • http://www.hinessightblog.com Hines-Sight Blog

    Thinking of you.  I hope you are recovering okay. 

  • Lsinger

    I know it’s been a long road to walk the past year. As many have said to me god has his reason’s…i truely beleive he does things to make us strong in our beliefs..and our lives…not all things can be good all the time but it’s how we handle the bad…I to have been walking this road with you and i know you are strong and will make it thur anything…praying always….things  will get better and you are not going thur any hard times alone…love you

  • http://twitter.com/gardenJess Jessica

    We’ve been through some hard times ’round here too – it may seem silly but I have a mantra that I repeat when I’m getting panicked about the situation – “One day at a time”.  Sometimes I changed day to step.  Either way all you can do is get through the moment you’re in and keep moving sometimes.  I’m so glad to hear that your mass was not cancer.  Hope you’re healing well, and I’ll be thinking about you.