WARNING! I may be a little bit woe is me but my point is to share the real stuff, how I feel and hopefully help others by me being bona fide about my life in this moment.

When life becomes difficult, how do you cope? 

How do you move forward again?

I’m asking these questions a lot lately.

This past year has been very overwhelming physically, mentally, and spiritually. First, as most of you know I was diagnosed with Thyroid cancer last year, had my thyroid removed, and had treatment done all within 6 months time. Then in July at a routine ob/gyn appointment I complained of a lot of pain at that time of month. They checked me with an ultrasound and found a mass in my uterus. It had to be removed because of my cancer diagnosis. They wanted it out quick. I had my hysterectomy about 5 weeks ago. The mass was NOT cancer! Thank you God!!

We also are going on about 4 years now of my husband being laid off once or twice a year which is causing some financial troubles to add to the problems we are having. It’s no fault of his, he is the hardest worker I know! We are both getting weary of it at this point especially on top of everything else. I’m also having some personal issues with attending church, I’m working on it with God’s help but it’s a work in progress. My faith has not changed but my views of church have a bit but I know God will help me through.

I’m healing slowly mentally, physically and spiritually. However, in one month’s time I’ve had my second surgery, kids starting back to school, I starting back to college and my husband’s Father passed away. It’s been overwhelming to say the very least. I had to get myself on an anti-depressant because I realized I needed it. I couldn’t get back up on my own.

Now I’m done woe is me.

I believe getting on this medicine has made for a step forward and a way to cope with all that has happened. I usually can handle things positively and pick myself back up but I think it was too much. Way too much too fast.

Like any human being (believer or not) we ask the questions “why” and “how” when we have life changing events happen. I still am asking both because quite honestly I can’t see the light at the end of the tunnel right now. I need some fun and joyful times with my husband, kids, family and friends. I need to write more. I need to be helping with the finances. I need to see the forward motion. I need to no longer cope but move on.

How do you cope when life gets so down? What about ways to move on and see that light at the end of the tunnel?

Blessings to you,

Chele