Is it a midlife crisis or am I just wiser? Life is hard. It sucks sometimes. Thyroid Cancer. 3 Autoimmune illnesses. Financial problems. Lessons learned, the hard way. Bad habits that I just can’t seem to stop. Deaths of loved ones that has changed me. Depression. Anxiety. Chronic Pain and Fatigue. Woe is me! Right? Not anymore. As I am officially 40 years old today, I am passed ready to change a lot of things to live a joyful and adventurous life. To feel like I’m doing some good for the world around me and for myself.
I’d like to think it’s a little of both but more the wiser. I’ve learned a lot about life and myself the past 7 years. From heartbreaking problems with church which left me questioning my faith in God and people to learning that even though I have serious health problems that have changed not only my life but my family’s as well, I still have something to give.
I don’t have to stop living because of how life has treated me. I need to start living!
I’m done being the people pleaser, being woe is me publicly and to myself, and I am done questioning my faith. I see where all of this has brought me. The kind of mindset I have now is not a bad thing. Not in the least. It is very much a good thing!
- I don’t care if you like me or not. My family loves me unconditionally and God is always there, that’s what I need to survive. A good friend told me 40 years old would make me not care about that, she was right. And God Forbid! I do love myself too because I mean well and I love unconditionally.
- Woe is me, something I’ve always hated about people I became. For 7 long years! Yes, I’ve had a rough go at it but it doesn’t have to stay that way. Hence, the reason I’m making a lot of changes around here. I don’t have to stop living because of how life has treated me. I need to start living!
- I do have something to give! The help of my authentic personality on my blog. I know it does help people. For my family, I am giving them the knowledge I’m learning about homesteading and survival preparedness. I can give them better health by changing the way I cook, garden and clean. For myself, it’s all about living, loving, learning and being positive about it all.
So, is it a midlife crisis or am I just wiser?
40 years old isn’t so bad! It’s made me wiser with maybe a dash of midlife crisis in there!
So tell me…. What was 40 like for you? What have you learned? Or if you are not 40 yet, what are you scared of?