This whole cancer process from the beginning feels like trying to unravel a tangled ball of string. The ups and downs. It’s just like the frustration of trying to get that tangled mess apart. The relief you get when you get just a little bit free. Then you do it all over again. It really can make a person weary. It has for me, I’ll be honest.

*FYI, it may be long but it’s been awhile since I posted an update.

I don’t have much to give you for an update. If you remember my post about what the government needs to hear, you know already that we do NOT have insurance. This is causing me to try again with Medicaid. I was told a few weeks ago that I was approved with a deductible over $3000 for six months. These first six months would be taken care of because of the cost of my surgery (which was over $19,000, somebody hold me while I faint). They will use that as a deductible, however this means my surgery will not be paid for. I opted to have the Medicaid for six months instead of having the surgery paid for so I can have my treatment done. At this point the money we owe doesn’t amount to the treatment I need. I still have not received the approval letter and none of my phone calls have been returned from my caseworker. So I’m trying to be patient and not freak out but it is definitely weighing heavy on me.

My recovery has been this same ball of tangled string. I am healing slowly. I have had a few good days to a few days that I am very worn out, to say the least. It’s almost as if I’m doing too much and then it hits me like a ton of bricks. My emotions are a complete mess. It may just be part of my healing process. I am now a cancer patient, didn’t ever think it would happen to me but it did and it’s reality. Which is why you may have heard me say many times lately that I want to be myself and enjoy the life He gave me. There is reason behind the madness some of you think is happening to me, I promise!

The good news is my husband is back to work! YAY! The down side, is that it could cause problems with Medicaid. His income does NOT support all six of us, especially medical bills! Medicaid may be dropped because he now has a job. Waiting to hear from the caseworker on that too. However, my husband having a job to support us is more important. If I don’t get approved because of his job, I’m okay with that.

Even with my positive nature and my faith it has been a very difficult time.

Thank you for those who have asked me for an update. It shows you care! Which makes my heart smile. My heart kind of needs that right now.

Blessings my lovelies,

Chele